Holiday Blues

I should be happy. I have a job, I'm healthy and things are getting better for me...and yet I cry daily. Not for a long time. It's usually just short bursts of tears at random points of the day. Sometimes they just happen for no reason, other times something sets me off. A song, a smell, a sight...I think it's the time of the year. It makes us single people feel even more alone. I'd like to be with someone for the Holidays just once.

I have to change the channel every time a Kay Jewelers commercial comes on. I get irrationally angry at them. Every kiss begins with Kay? How about every kick begins with Kay? Ugh. And 'He went to Jared'? Another vomit inducing commercial. I'd like to punch Jared in the gut.

Oh wow there I go again. Crying. So annoying. At least I don't do it in front of people and if I feel like it's going to happen in front of people I calm myself down. I psyche myself out so to speak. I nearly burst into tears on the train last night for no reason. And I almost always cry before I go to bed...alone.

Pathetic.

What is the point of this entry? There is no point. I'm rambling about nonsense. Maybe that's why I'm single ;-)