Christmas used to be my favorite holiday. I loved listening to the Christmas songs, seeing decorations everywhere, knowing it was around the corner...now? Not so much. Now Christmas is a nuisance, it's a painful reminder of how single I actually am. Besides my immediate family I have no one to buy gifts for. Christmas isn't fun for me. There are no kids in the family and the day itself is uneventful. The commercials annoy me. Especially the jewelry commercials which I mentioned in my last entry. I change the channel now. Those reminders of just how alone I am don't help my mood.
It seems like every year something bad happens. In all honestly the last year that was good from start to finish for me was 2000. 2001 was pretty awful. 2002 the same, 2003 yeah bad, 2004 ugh, 2005...actually 2005 was mostly okay. 2006 AWFUL. 2007 more of the same. 2008 had some really good parts but ended on a shitty note and now here we are in 2009 and as usual I'm happy for the end of the year's arrival.
What will 2010 bring? Who the hell knows.
But I am foolishly hopeful that something good will happen. That mostly good things will happen. 2000, 2005, 2010...it could happen, right?
Stay tuned.
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